Thank you anita. I definitely think youre right, I am a fairly masculine girl for sure. I think a lot of it stems that I am just terrified to have anything definite in my life because it takes away the potential. Im really scared to commit to something because I feel like I’m just watching all the other options fade. I wonder if that is what men feel when they feel like they need to experience other people. I just feel like I would have more to give and I would be able to understand myself and the relationship better if I got a better perspective. I just dont feel very good about it right now at all