Don’t be too hard on yourself, we all do the same mistakes(let me say I). Just occupy yourself with the things that you love (easy said than done) not a job. You are now giving that ungrateful….don’t wanna use harsh words, let me call him Mr troubled and confused . ….okay don’t give Mr troubled and confused power over you…..let him go…release him and move on. Yes you made a crap move – pity the woman that will be with him. you don’t deserve such.

tThe way we put ourselves under pressure and sometimes even allow our relatives and friends put extra pressure…..two days back my Aunt called just to ask me why I am not married at 37, geez what am i supposed to do…marry a frog?….I felt like I was in a big stadium with lots of people applauding it was as if I was a Matador dressed in sparking Spanish costume carrying a red cloth in front of a black bull. I could visualise her mouth – it was like the eyes of a fighting bull staring right at me and blowing its nose and words ready to attack at any time. .and boy she did- the words went straight for the heart and paralysed me instantly.

In time you and I will find our soul mates who will appreciate us and love us the way we deserve to be loved. Just be open and not rush to anything. Eat cocolate and go and work it out in the gym…..