Dear Norit,
I know how you feel because I was afraid of going out and meeting new people. But I`ve changed and overcome that fear, and I just want to say – yes, it is possible to change and never feel that way again.
I will be short in my answer here and just want to give you this article that might help you somehow. Actually, I will be glad if you find something in it which you`ll implement in your life.
Here it is: http://wanderside.com/how-i-overcame-depression-and-i-know-ill-never-go-back-there/
And, of course, let me know your thoughts.
Big hug for you.