Thank you for that Jobebee………. I am really hoping that regardless of what happens, that I can get out of this strange love loop that I seem to find myself in………. glamorizing some one that I barely even know is just not good. 🙁
I don’t get it. I really don’t understand why we had to have so much in common though. Or why he wants to be friends instead of my idea to stop talking… or… why he will email me “hi” out of no where…. or anything for that matter. 🙁
UGH. And I still can’t stop thinking about him… adoring him… wondering… etc etc…. it’s so pathetic and annoying. And I have his MAIL… long story… but…. when he returns from out of town he wants to “get coffee” LOLOLOL…. this “mail” is haunting me!!

“SHEESH” Is Right! It ‘aint all that bad. 🙂 HUman. Need a little salt… then a lot more salt… a little sugar… a lotta vanilla… Organic semi sweet choc chips and voila!! The Best Damn Cookies You ever ate. 🙂

Your tearing at the pedals analogy is so me. I’m like 1000 mi an hour everywhere I go. Which is totally impossible. I just burn out and miss the… blooming flower…. 🙂

I’m done with the blabbing for sure.

Thanks again, Matt

Thank you both. I will say how strange it is to be able to know in my gut that I need to sort of… avoid it… this “relationship”… but then at the same time… the other part of me is like… “you don’t HAVE to avoid him”… “what’s the harm in indulging a little bit”… but the fact of the matter is… he’s pretty much my super potent drug… it’s sort of crazy… Inky, I know, at first it was a super careless way to fill the void that my husband and I did not share… then it turned into… I hate to say it… maybe a little bit of a rebound… even though I did really like him before everything hit the fan. I guess timing is everything and right now it’s a bad time. And I will eventually get over him and he will be a distant memory. And I will be able to make more rational decisions.

I ordered some things to make jewelry at home, a few books, I run and lift weights almost everyday… my kids keep me motivated… I’m pretty busy in life… the sunshine I’m loving.

Now I just need to be able to LOVE LOVE LOVE being with my new best friend…. MEEEE!!!!!!!!!!! Any suggestions? Books… etc. 🙂