Hi norit,
I’m dealing with something similar. I have one close friend who lives states away. I’ve gone through a lot of changes over the summer and haven’t really been myself. I think it’s driven everyone around me kinda crazy and I’m having a hard time feeling much love for myself at all. I’m seeing a therapist but other than that, I don’t know what to do.
I think it helps to know you’re not alone so, I’m sorry you’re going through this. Social anxiety is no fun.
Max