Thanks, it just feels like Im going nowhere.

I found out through a trusted friend that my ex said one of the other reasons why she broke up with me is because she had nothing to learn from me especially sexually. I know my ex is quite a sexual person but she always said how she was satisfied in that department to me and her close friends. She was the first person ive been in a relationship with, kissed and lost my virginity to so she is very special to me but this has just made me feel so terrible and less confident with myself. She always appreciated that i came from a very strict upbringing anc never had an issue with this before. I know im inexperienced compared to her but I dont understand why she would have stayed with me for 3 and a half years if she felt this way. Ive always been nervous about opening myself to people and connecting with them intimately so to hear this I feel even worse like I can never give myself fully to someone.
I just dont know how I can ever be confident with myself with the fear of this happening to me again. I find it so hard connecting even talking to people I dont know most times.

On top of that she said that she doesnt see a long term future for herself and this girl she broke up with me for. I know she wants to experience whats out there but for her to give up everything we had – six years of friendship for this girl she doesnt see a future with I feel like I meant nothing to her.

Im finding it so hard to get my head around these teo things and moving on. ive been keeping myself busy amd distracted but nothing seems to really help