I was lonely as a child. I feel lonely now. My parents had a complicated relationship. My mom moved out of country when I was 10. My dad raised my brother and I for a year and then I moved to live with my mother since. 5 years later, my brother came to live with us. I basically grew up without my father since I was 11. My parents are still married. I was very close to my father but the distance between us wasn’t convenient for us to keep in touch. Now that I’m an adult, I feel like I should solve my own problems rather than running to my dad and cry. He asked me not too long back if I would have more children. I couldn’t answer. I never told anyone that my husband has a chronic condition and it would be harder for us to conceive naturally because of the med he is taking. My mom and I on the other hand are not that close. I can talk to my dad on a deeper level than I can with my mom. I lived with mom since I was 11, but she was always questioning my actions. Every adult friends I grew up with knew that she favored my brother more than she favored me. I ran away from home at 18. At 14 I was sexually harassed by my mom’s brother-in-law. She didn’t believe me. I should have been spending time at a psychiatrist’s office but all they did was taking my money and it never helped. I stopped going and just basically dealt with it. I got over it. I wish someone would just tell me that other people had it worse than I had. My husband was sexually harassed when he was 3 and another time when he was a teenager. His parents divorced when he was 12. He was homeless when he was 15. Our lives aren’t perfect but we’re doing our best to get by. We do want our best for our child. We don’t want our son to grow up the way we were raised.