I️ appreciate you insight. When I️ mention the conversation between my mom and I️, I️ think that I️ was trying to explain that I️ vent to my mom but I️ also don’t leave out little details that could be significant to the situation. My mom knows him and she thinks he is a wonderful, generous man. But to be so hateful towards a person you say that you love and so easily drop them when something doesn’t go as planned. Maybe it’s not harsh. I️ feel that this is all part of the bigger plan. I’m not angry with his decision for me to leave but the way he did it. Yesterday he left the house immediately after our talk and said he would be gone for the day and I️ better be gone when he gets back at 5. So I️ grabbed a few changes of clothes and necessities and left. I️ text him telling him I’m sorry for everything and thanked him for his generosity and let him know that I️ couldn’t get all of my things because I️ didn’t have boxes or time to move everything. I️ also assured him that I️ wasn’t trying to get him to change his mind or drag things out. It was all just too much for one day. His reply was that he would pack it for me so I️ told him to do what he needed to do to be happy. I’m not trying to make him out to be the bad guy but and I’m definitely not saying that what I️ did was ok. But a week ago he was raving about how well I️ did and he was surprised how easy my detox had been. I️ guess I️ just feel like when someone commits to something, they should follow through and in this case, at least make sure the person gets back to where you got them from. Not just tell them to get out and not return texts or phone calls. I’m just staying positive and working on myself. I’m giving him his space to do whatever he needs to do. I️ also want to add that he has a history of drug abuse himself so he knows how these things go. We take it day by day.

You are right. I️ am goin to be fine. I’m struggling with the fact that I️ could have carried on like it never happened. But besides the fact that I’m an honest person I’m trying learn to trust people and communicate my feelings and needs. The more I️ think about it the more I️ think that it might be a jealousy thing. When we were talking he just looked at me until I️ told him who I️ got it from. And while he was struggling for words he kinda mentions “u two sneaking around”. Not the exact words but along those lines. Or u could be right, a personal issue. Thank u for replying.