Hi Alexandria and all,

I’m going through something alike. I googled for support and this forum came up and has really helped for what i read.

I’m a little older, 26. I was with my ex for 4 years. Two years into our relationship, he had cheated on me with a local bartender. It wasn’t a one time thing- on the days he wasn’t with me, he was with her. We both got hurt. I remember sitting in her car with her, after we found out; he texted me to see if i was spending the weekend and when i said no, two minutes later, her phone went off inviting her. after i confronted him, i broke things off. He continually tried to fix things and didn’t speak to her. Over time, i forgave him and we got back together. She had started seeing someone new- she had a daughter and so did her new bf, they made a very nice blended family and she ended up getting engaged to him. My ex and I stayed together, but the relationship was broken. 1 year ago I got pregnant and we were going to start a family. he would still go to her bar, that she bartends at, but i never made a deal out of it because we were starting a family and I wantes to trust him. Over the course of three months, his drinking was very bad, the fighting was awful… and i lost our baby. I was in so much emotional pain. I got granted a protection order from him in january, that is actually up in two days- one month after i had filed, in february, she moved in with him. i deleted all of my social media and went MIA because i was grieving over losing both my first child and the man i loved who i thought i would marry.. who i thought i was going to have be the father of my children. i stumbled across pictures of them today. he seems different, like more put-together, like he treats her right. there are even 1 or 2 pictures of him with her daughter. I am so broken over this. Maybe it’s jelousy because I feel like she has everything I wanted with him. and I had given him the best of me. I know I should be happt if he’s a bettwr man after what happened with us but I am still very hurt.

-M