I might also add that immediately after the breakup I deleted her from all social media and yesterday she had added me on Instagram on an alternate account, seemingly trying to keep tabs on me. She had said she missed me before then I reciprocated and she knew she still had me so she lost interest. My standing up to her and not trying to get her approval must feel really different from what she’s used to, especially with all the horny teenagers at school. I don’t just opine on the past, I work as a writer and have plenty of hobbies. The way I see it we’re all human and good people make mistakes and do bad things, but that doesn’t make them bad.

However, I have learned that doesn’t mean you have to just up and forgive them and take them back or they’ll just do it all over again. No, but seriously I need a ban or something, I guess I just have a lot on my mind on a Friday night when my brain thinks about them being together, but it’s all speculation and not worth worrying about and is something I’ve learned through mindfulness learned through this and Sam Harris.