In all honesty Stacy I gave her access to my phone kind of from the start when she mentioned trust issues. I really had nothing to hide.  I just didn’t know how much that would bite me in the butt later on.

I mean in all honesty if the situation was reversed. I really wouldn’t of cared what dating sites she subscribed to prior to our relationship.  If someone is going to cheat I mean a deleting that stuff won’t really matter. Bottom line is. It is a control tactic.  Even though I gave her a lot of control it was never enough.

<p style=”text-align: center;”>I appreciate what you said Stacy. I mean besides the whole going through the phone thing.  We had a great relationship and I still love her.  Granted having never gone through something like this with prior people I have dated or been in relationships with it has left an emotional scar.  Granted I regret like the text overload I sent to her which resulted in her doing that formal complaint since she might occasionally run into me.  I work in the plant next to hers. I sent her flowers and an apology note. Before I knew about the formal complaint.  Also  had a mutual friend send her a third party apology  since I can’t have direct contact. You only get so much room on those flower cards. So this was a bit more fleshed out. I mean I highly doubt we will ever talk or get back together. I just wanted to apologize for any emotional damage I might have caused.  I mean I kind of take some responsibility I had a lot of dating applications I had subscribed to through the years. Even then I wonder if she found nothing would she accuse me of covering my tracks or something 🤔 . Maybe she was projecting a guilty conscious for something she did.  I tend to over think things. And we’ll the result was an emotional overload that I unloaded on her.  After weeks of thinking.</p>

I mean other than kind of shifting the blame.  I don’t really use offensive words to get my point across.  I get emotional but I have no reason to be crass or vulgar. I imagine she utilized the fact I messaged her several times.  She exercised the flight mechanic and had someone else make it there problem.  She has played the victim a lot.  So it’s probably an easy part to play.

You are right though we do pass on some of our recycled baggage onto others after a relationship.  Sometimes without even knowing we are doing it.

Thank you for support and also making things clearer in my head. Its nice to have someone else’s perspective.

Well i sent like three text on the same day. This was one of them.

Well, if we never talk or see each other again. You take care. I will remember the past 6 months for a while. Waking up in bed next to you. The smile on your face. The way you smell. Dancing with you at the Lyons day concert. The Nickleback concert. The family reunion. Making dinner for you and breakfast. When you were still in bed. The brewers games with you and my cousin. But most of all I will remember being betrayed by my best friend and loverover stuff I had subscribed to over the course of being in the military for 15 years. Being back in Wisconsin and not dating anyone for 8 years. I gave you my all, and apparently, that was not enough. You take care and enjoy being on the outside looking in.

Then after she blocked me on fb I said.  Good now i don’t have to see your endless turn style of losers you date. And then the Jelly Roll video Somebody Save me and added.  That song suits you. In all honesty I did harass her which i mean i could say hello and someone could say that was harassment.

I appreciate the support and feedback thank you.