Dear “Hurt”, you asked the question “what’s driving you to him”. “Human nature”, it is simply human behavior to yearn for what we seem to want but can’t have. You are simply trying to get water from a dry fountain, he can’t give you what he don’t have available but you’re seeing that as your problem when it’s not (not fully anyway). You’re not wrong for wanting love, you’re only wrong for trying to purchase a car at a candy store(the ego can be rather persistent sometimes). When faced with dilemmas such as this one, first stop and ask yourself how rational are you being in the moment in which you insist on getting your way, the ego will not have a problem with showing you what’s really going on once you learn to question it.The ego is the driven part of ourselves that must be checked regularly which will test your will power often. Secondly, when it seems we just can’t say no to a “thing” we must treat it as an addiction (drawn to a thing or someone). When removing people and things out of our lives such as smoking, drugs, toxic people ie., we must immediately replace them or it with something positive, enlightening, inspirational or motivational. You must first determine whether you’re interested in keeping him as just a friend or walk away altogether. Either way, when you treat yourself a certain way, others will follow suit. (We teach others how to treat us)!