I would like to thank everyone on here who has posted and I think there is some great advice on here. I also have been through great suffering over the past few years due to the cruel acts done to animals which led me to some very dark places. At one point I felt as if my soul had finally broke and that I was living in an actual hell. This deep suffering eventually turned to anger against the world and I found myself despising humanity. I could barely function in the world anymore.

I eventually realized that I needed to get help and I began to go to a psychiatrist to help rid myself of this anger and pain. Over many months I learned how to become aware of my emotions and to let go of what I could not control. I turned to mediation and let myself grieve for all of the suffering I had witnessed. It has not been an easy battle and I still struggle day to day. However the struggle has eased and the pain is not so great.

The greatest lesson I have learned throughout this process is that the suffering of other beings will always be present in the world. This is the nature of existence and it is not something I will ever be able to end. I have come to accept this. However I do what I can and I focus on the good that I have done. Do not focus on the bad or you will go crazy.

I truely believe those that feel suffering as we do are all going through this process for a reason. I know it has made me a more compassionate person on a much deeper level then before. I am starting to realize the magnitude of the suffering in those that are inflicting pain on other living beings. The bigger picture has begun to come into focus.

I felt very lost for many years but I would not give up this experience. I feel like I have evolved as a human and that I am reaching a small, but measurable level of contentment. The world is not such a terible place and is actually filled with a lot of beauty and  beautiful people with kind souls.

I didnt mean to come on here and just talk about myself but I hope that my story will help someone else that is suffering. You may be in a very dark place now but keep on working through it. It will get easier and you will be a better person for it.