Hello,

I understand how you are feeling and I am sending you loving thoughts. I am going through the current experience myself. That monkey mind that will not shut itself off from the worry and anxiety of what might happen, what I could have done differently. Knowing that replaying the images in m head & beating myself up will not help the matter, but it is hard to stop a moving train once it has gained momentum. I tend to think the worst case scenerio so I can prepare myself. This, of course, is not optimal in living a happy, healthy, peaceful life.

The matter is still not resolved, but I do have a very supportive husband who is there with a hug and that helps tremendously. I would suggest find a good hugger. I think a lot of my tormoil comes from FEAR – fear of the unknown, fear of not being in control, fear of criticism, fear of what others will think. But, God is in everything and everywhere so last night while watching the Sochi Olympics there was this young figure skater who said, “Our coach is making us read Phil Jackson’s book (not sure which one) about letting go of fear so you can have passion and enjoy what you do.” What is it you are afraid of and then let it go. Easier said than done, but I think it is a good start and one I am going to pursue. Oh, and I keep reminding myself, just because I had a very bad day at work and the worst case scenerio would be I get fired, it does not mean I have a bad life – so whatever happens, I can handle it.

I hope this helps – face your fears and know whatever happens – you can handle it.