Hi Zita,
I don’t know why the emptiness is so heavy but I carry that weight too. I’ve spent hours on the internet searching for answers and never contacted anyone – you are the first. My struggling heart goes out to you and wishes you peace and connection.
I feel you’ve started the journey and though it can feel really daunting, each step we take will make us grow. I have to remind myself daily that it is a voyage of self discovery and with each new awareness, new possibilities unfold. This is a special time for us and gratitude has makes a huge difference for me. It takes me out of myself and puts me back in the world. Those brief moments give me a sense of calm and connectedness with all.
Here’s a huge hug to you. We aren’t alone. ?