I feel the same. Never felt loved and protected and trying to make sense of life. I recently left a job and staying home. I feel lonely and depressed and have no will to get up and do any work. Working at jobs like a robot is all that keeps me sane. But my mind keeps running.

Feel like giving up, learn yoga and more about spirituality and become a yoga teacher. But again I lack will power.

Following this chain for further advise.

Thanks
Raima