Hello T. I understand what you write so well even if my story and circumstances are most probably differente. Yet, I can totally identify. I also think (and I would dare to say that I know) that I will never really get over my ex. And I am 40 years old, so I am not talking about a first young love. It ended almost 2 years ago. I guess we were a bit distructive together (a speciality of the house here..); i also think we went both through difficult times emotionally for family reasons and circumstances and I admit I was not really behaving as an adult who knows how to be in an adult relationship. Meaning I was pulling him all over with my emotional rollcoasters (mainly due to my family situation which still drags me down). And some time I was only looking for him and others I would distance him.. 🙁

But we loved so much. Oh Boy if we did. But after all the shit of the rollcoasters, at one point, he literally decided that enough was enough and in no time got together with a new girlfirend: they have been basically engaged since, moved in together, inseparable.

I am in a relationship now, but I would lie if said you that I dont think of him. I do and every day.
Ah and I wrote to him incessently, sometimes i still do in the impossible hope that some das he wakes up and decides to get back to me (basically a science fiction movie).

So, now.. I don’t know. My life goes on but I love him. Desperately. He is like engraved in my heart and sould and I am sad at the idea that I will not share my life with him…..

Big hug to all the broken hearts!