Jonathan,

I lost my dad to drinking at age 16 and both my best friends Zach and Ryan in a car accident I was driving in at age 17. I would carry much guilt and regret for the situation and anger directed towards my father for leaving me at a young age. I did 3 months in jail for this and it gave me time to think clear about life and see deep into life’s depths. I was at constant battle to rationalize my past into patterns I could understand. I shared the same tendency to indulge in negativity’s possibilities to protect myself from future occurrences of similar situations also. It engulfed my life for sometime. I would break that by blocking everything out and focusing on the now, and methodically breaking down goals or issues into very small tasks to avoid anxiety. I bought 10 cork boards one day and labeled them. Health, Financials, Mindset, Goals, Achievements etc etc. Lack of organization is similar to negative thoughts…You see and act in reality very clear similar to positive consciousness. My mind gets jumbled a lot so it helps me to project everything into tangible physical form I can feel with my senses and understand more efficiently. You can only think one thought at at time, but you can see plenty of them in reality and the possibilities of organizing the patterns in your thoughts are limitless. I’m still trying to envision the true form of myself just like you are. It takes persistence towards anxiety to overcome that challenge. Hopefully that helped in someway!

Demolish Anxiety,

-R

• This reply was modified 11 years, 3 months ago by Ryan.