Am I wrong for expecting closure from him? When he can’t even stomach talking to me.

I don’t know why I feel this way nor what I did, but not getting closure or communicating anything is making me angry lately, trouble sleeping, change in appetite, loss of libido, manic and sad.

Hi Anita 🙂

I am from the city. I am a black man whose apart of the LGBTQ community. I have dealt with that squared that away and feel good about that, however, their are some personal familiar issues that are play a long role in my make up. Being adopted one of them. Family religious beliefs. Things that I have moved on from and are feeling better about.

I’m grateful for the expereince of being broken hearted I suppose because I had to grow. I had to feel somethings, though I’d be grateful for closure with him more. I’m rational, real, don’t ask for much if I even ask at all. I just want to move on from this because I feel like I’m stuck on someone I never dated and I can’t really live my life, and or be myself without reminders of him, and or how he made me feel.

I’m stuck on how the situation made me feel.  If I were to get closure, I’d not romanticize it. I never did. I’d move on like I already have. I’m so optimistic to a fault about the good in people and how sometimes I need to just feel alive, when I spent so many years hiding all the parts of me. I’m mad at myself for sitting here. Giving advice and helping others, when I can’t even help myself. Starting to feel a little mad and a tad bit crazy.