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April 29, 2018 at 8:49 am #204733aliceParticipant
Hiya,
Thanks for your responses.
I actually do think I am good at being in the present, it’s more that I often don’t feel happy with it. I find working on my arts and crafts gives me a level of grounding. I mostly do feel in control, this is something that’s really important to me. It’s one of the reasons I had to leave a very controlling corporate job.
That’s interesting re. having goals beyond the now.. I don’t. I do have dreams but that is just what they are- they change all of the time. I’ve not followed any kind of plan in a really long time. Even with buying my house, I hadn’t planned to, it was a spontaneous decision because I needed to escape the living situation I was in at the time. So.. I guess this is why earning and spending money and time feels a bit worthless.. because what am I doing it for/ what’s it leading to?
I am very independent, I don’t like to rely on anybody for anything, however I find it is difficult to make plans for just yourself, without anyone else involved i.e. long term goals. I do love the idea of running craft workshops, perhaps owning a studio however I can’t see how it could work when I feel so unsettled/ find it difficult to stay still long enough to really grow anything?
November 8, 2017 at 1:18 pm #177083aliceParticipantThanks Eliana, I have thought about both temp and volunteer work, to get myself out of this rut.. it could be a good way to ease myself into something new. I have also thought about interior design but I flitter from idea to idea and find it difficult staying focused on one thing.. I worry that I’ll make the wrong choice, especially if it involves investing in training.
Hi Anita, I mean that if I didn’t make these plans, nothing would happen.. Most people I know will spend their weekends with partners/ family so 9 times out of 10, it’s me who has to arrange things and get people together. It often feels like a chore trying to find ways of filling my free time and I feel a lot of pressure to make the most of it when so unhappy Mon-Fri.
Thanks for taking the time to help 🙂
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