Hi there Marcus,

i think i know why you are having these problems and how you solve them, i recommend you listen to an audio called “freedom from anxiety” by Nicola bird. You should decide what makes you happy in your life and try to stop looking at like from an outside in perspective but instead look at life from an inside out perspective i will give you an example: rather than saying “my job makes me stressed” try to understand that it is not the job that is stressing you out it is your thoughts. At first this may think you understand this but i promise you once you understand this simple fact your whole life will change. I wish someone had told me this a few years ago. We are mortal beings so lets live our lives the way we want to, money is insignificant and so is your job. We allow humanly constructed concepts to shape who we are as human beings and we build attachments to things we simply don’t need to. This is your chance to really turn your life around, look at this as a stepping stone, i say f**ck it and take a risk! You are not happy at the moment and you know what is causing you to be unhappy so change it, anxiety is not real, its just a few thoughts that you decide to act on. Once you realise that your thoughts don’t matter so much you stop taking life so seriously and that my friend is the key to an anxiety free life. I want to remind you that you will always be okay as long as you are alive, say you lost everything- your job, money, flat and all of your possessions, you would find a job and maybe go on benefits for a while then you would save up some money and buy a flat. You will not always feel like this, you can’t control anything in this world, let it go, let it leave, let it happen. Nothing in this world belonged or was promised to you anyway. (rupi kaur)If you were looking for a sign this is it. Take a leap, if you want something to change you have to make it change.