Thank you all so much for your kind words. It helped to hear from someone who has been an alcoholic personally. The advice here rings true. I think a lot of it seems to advocate focusing on myself more, on my well-being. Which is a hard concept because yes, I believe that will probably end with splitting paths. It feels so hard, with so much love, when I want so badly to see him through, with him trying so hard. I’ve been in relationships before but this is the first time I’m in love. And my love for both myself and him EXPLODES and seems to overflow when I think of reaching for the door. First cut is the deepest? Ahh. But really, I don’t think he wants to love himself the way I want him to love himself. And maybe he has to find the motivation for that love…for himself.