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October 14, 2014 at 4:01 am #66259
Wow, thank you Jordan. This resonates quite a bit! There’s a lot in there and without babbling on, the ideas really help. It seems there’s a weird balance between consciousness (which thinking can sometimes help) and living..
Slightly unrelated but related nonetheless, another thing that is part of this feeling is my realising how I sacrificed fun and living to the full, and non-academic opportunities (societies, trying new things, friendships/possible relationships, honestly and fearlessly exploring sexuality/relationships even or just finding out who I am), and right at the end before I graduated I had a few weeks of fun and really living in a sense, and maybe part of the feeling of the work being meaningless/not worth it comes from my wishing I’d had fun too. It kind of feels like I’ve missed all those opportunities and part of me wishes I could go back to university, not for the work but to have fun/make the most of opportunities.
Maybe that’s part of my lack of motivation too- a part of me right now feels why bother , and a part just wants to have fun somehow and not have responsibilities like finding a job.October 13, 2014 at 3:22 am #66231
Thanks again Inky. Again, a loving and compassionate response. I’ll try that- though there is a part of me that doesn’t want to do anything unless/until I see the point, I also see that maybe that’s like hitting my head against a brick wall. Perhaps, I hypothesise, the way to understand life is by living it and experiencing it, and that gaining understanding is part of that journey.. Maybe it won’t come to me if I just wait and think and think..
Like you said, I’m just going to give moving on a go, and see how it goes.
Much love, Seeker.October 12, 2014 at 8:37 am #66209
Thank you for such a quick and kind reply, and for your suggestions!
Erm, not to disrespect your beliefs and ideas (just I think I’d better be honest and open), but what if I’m feeling a lot of resistance towards the idea of God? Since a year or two I’ve lost faith/belief/trust in the idea of God, and religious/God terminology/stuff kind of makes me want to run the other way.
Also, I just still think/react- but what’s the point in any of it still? Life doesn’t need me, it just is.. The world doesnt need me, when I’m gone it’ll still be here.