I had a very similar experience. After running into some trouble at work I was referred to a counselor who specialized in learning disorders. After lots of charts and questionnaires and such I was diagnosed with ADD. So far I haven’t dealt with it chemically but I made a lot of life style changes that helped. For instance, I learned to remove myself from situations that trigger symptoms whenever possible. I’ve also worked out better ways of communicating with my girl and systems for getting things to work out pretty good most of the time as opposed to perfect all of the time. Most importantly, I had some really supportive people in my life who I was able to bounce ideas off of or occasionally explode at.
Maybe that all does sound a bit hokey. I probably wouldn’t have believed it a few years ago because most self help is pretty dumb. Improvement is hard… Really, really, really hard. We can give you suggestions, diagnoses and lists of top tens or top twenties or top thousand strategies for success but in the end improvement is just the result of patience, trial and error and even more trial and error. So don’t be too hard on yourself. You might be selfish and greedy and temperamental sometimes but at the most basic level you are probably an ok person. I’m guessing that you haven’t purposefully hurt any small animals or stolen candy from babies and you probably even recycle. Maybe exercise and yoga just aren’t your bag, maybe you’ll always have a bit of a temper but you’ll just have to accept that you will never be exactly perfect and that you’re mostly all right anyway. Once you stop getting frustrated with yourself on top of getting frustrated with whatever is ruining your day, things will get much easier.
So yeah, if you can manage it, try to get in touch with a professional. Remember not to spiral too much if a certain form of positivity isn’t doing it for you. There’s more things to try out and you’re still young.
Peace!