Hi Ben, I believe you are magnifying the thoughts in your head and it’s causing you increased anxiety. You are going through a rough patch and a time of transition and it’s not abnormal for anxiety, confusion and maybe even feelings of hopelessness to come because it appears that things are not manifesting the way you would like them to at this current moment. However, it’s how you are choosing to look at your situation that Are likely causing the feelings of hopelessness and increased anxiety. Despise not the day of small beginnings. GOD makes everything beautiful in its time. You are simply going through a period of metamorphosis and the test is to choose to look at these changes from a positive perspective. You have been blessed with gifts and talents and if it appears one thing isn’t working just re-strategize and develop a new plan. Usually while in a period of transition we have to balance re-starting and building while also having the patience and belief that things will improve and you will achieve a place of success and stability. Try to look at what you are experiencing rt now as a temporary place. If it’s raining and storming then eventually the sunshine has to come the key is believing that. Hang in there. Things will get better and you will smile and laugh again. Adjust your thinking and believe things are going to get better. You will eventually find your passion and the job that makes you happy you just have to hold it together. Sometimes our trials come to teach us and test us and once we pass the tests we go to the level. I encourage you to stay positive and prayerful and above all believe everything is going to get better for you, only BELIEVE. May GOD bless you with peace and wellness and prosperity.