Dear Naz,
No matter how it may seem we are never alone. You are not alone in your pain. Here are somethings I think will make a difference:
Using affirmations – write uplifting messages on sticky notes and put them all around your room. Messages like, I am an unrepeatable miracle, I am a warrior of love and light, whatever may appear to be missing from my life I always have something to be grateful for (whatever inspires you, I got this from Lisa Nichols).
Meditation Apps – Try Calm and Zest, they’re both great apps or just look for guided meditations on Youtube and sit with yourself for twenty minutes, twice a day. Gratitude journals are the most powerful tools to transform any negative state.
Routine and Time Tracking – Create a routine for yourself that will nourish you, like light exercise and healthy diet.
Naz, the hardest part is to get your mind to look outside of it’s negative spell. I am very familiar with this and I know there’s no quick fix. In fact I was having a rough day today but seeing your post made me want to look beyond my own pain to support you out of yours. We are so vulnerable as human beings and Life often gives us a thrashing but we are also immensely strong and something tells me you are very strong and beautiful with you my dear. So climb out of your own well of darkness one rung at a time and know that you are held.
Love and hugs,
S