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  • in reply to: What will make us brave and safe? #449935
    silvery blue
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    Hello Tee,

    thank you for your wisdom. I agree with you. It brings me somewhere…

    Are you interested in Buddhism? Have you ever heard of watering the seeds? I wrote a post about it in my previous thread on page 19, post #449674.

    I shared my thoughts in my journal (on another forum):

    My mind is a garden with seeds of happiness, joy, … but also anger or fear, …

    Selective watering involves mindful practice to water the seeds of love, peace, and compassion, which strengthens them and helps them bloom, while the seeds of anger or fear are safe and dormant in the soil… I take care of them, of course, but I don’t water them… otherwise my garden would be full of thorns…

    I have to be careful about what waters my seeds from the outside world, too… news, ads, social media, conflicts, arguments, … these can water the seeds of anger, sadness or fear…

    I have to be more mindful about my watering. And sometimes it can be hard… sometimes it can mean that I must break off a contact with some people who keep watering the seeds of anger, fear or saddness in me.

    When I think about it now, I feel guilty that I let myself be influenced by others, but it’s something natural and normal that people and their energies influence me… somewhere along the path of my life I got this strange message that I’m weak if I let myself be influenced… that I have to endure everything… because it’s supposed to be done like that…

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    in reply to: What will make us brave and safe? #449921
    silvery blue
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    Hello Tee, Alessa and everyone,

    it is okay to feel anger when there is mistreatment, but it is not okay to turn our anger into a lifestyle.

    HOW TO DEFUSE A BOMB
    When you contain too much violence and anger within yourself, you become so tense that you are like a bomb about to go off. You suffer very much, and your suffering spills out all over the people you live or work with. People become afraid of you, they don’t want to approach you. So you believe that everyone is boycotting you. You become extremely lonely. When we suffer, we have the tendency to blame other people and to see them as the source of our suffering. We don’t recognize that we are responsible to some extent for our suffering as well as for making those around us suffer. We don’t see that while others may want to help us, we have become like a bomb, ready to explode. Or perhaps you know someone like that, and although you would like to reach out to them, you feel they might explode at any moment so you keep your distance. You have to train yourself first to become skillful. Practice mindful breathing, mindful walking, embracing your own suffering, and using loving speech. Then, you can approach the other person with your solid presence and your mindful speech. This can be very healing for both people. With deep listening and loving speech, you may be able to restore communication.

    I know from my experience – both online and in real life – that it is very difficult, almost impossible, to communicate peacefully with these angry and resentful people. It is always possible for a while, but then they return to their old selves, a ticking bomb…some people will not take their full responsibility for becoming a healthy person… and my compassion is not a bottomless well… ❤️

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    in reply to: Compassion and respect during times of conflict #449919
    silvery blue
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    Anita

    It is a sensitive topic. I would like to discuss it by email privately: silvery8blue@gmail.com

    It is the most compassionate and respectful way with regard to everyone – you, me and other members here.

    🌸

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    in reply to: Compassion and respect during times of conflict #449887
    silvery blue
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    Hello Anita, I am talking to everyone on this forum, including If you need to ask or process something very sensitive, you can write to me silvery8blue@gmail.com

    It is invitation for anyone who wants to speak to me.

    I don’t want to put anyone under more stress in public. People here deserve peace, compassion and respect.

    I do believe you have a lot of controlling habits, but I feel that you are not still open and ready to accept it. And thus I will not discuss it publicly with respect to others, because it could create more stress to all members here and it is not fair to them.

    You can write to me on my email.

    With all respect and compassion, Anita. 🙏

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    in reply to: What will make us brave and safe? #449855
    silvery blue
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    The book is wonderful. I will buy it. I hope that one day I will actually live this wisdom, and not just read it… there is still a long way to go… but I am not giving up. ❤️

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    in reply to: Compassion and respect during times of conflict #449854
    silvery blue
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    I wanted to share one more thought…

    I want to be compassionate and respectful to you, so I won’t drag you into my own problems over and over again. But that doesn’t mean I don’t want to connect with you… I just believe that oversharing doesn’t connect us, but rather the opposite… I can’t quite put it into the right words now… I don’t want to burden you with my own problems – I take responsibility for them. I know I have to deal with myself and my own emotions on my own. I don’t want to drag you into it and drain you, hurt you… again and again… That’s why I have to solve it on my own… and kind of isolate myself a bit. But I do cherish your presence…

    Does it make sense to you? I cannot put my thoughts into words very well.

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    in reply to: Compassion and respect during times of conflict #449852
    silvery blue
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    *making others feel responsible for the controller’s own behavior or feelings

    in reply to: Compassion and respect during times of conflict #449851
    silvery blue
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    And that also means that I will no longer accept or tolerate gaslighting (making others question their own memory or perception of the situation), blaming or guilt-tripping (making others feel responsible for their own behavior or feelings), belittling members’ pain or feelings, or monitoring others (copying their threads and using them later against them).

    These are signs of controlling behaviour and it makes many people here strressed. And that’s why I will point to these problems.

    On mental health forum, these things are blocked, and users are even banned when this behavior is repeated.

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    in reply to: Compassion and respect during times of conflict #449849
    silvery blue
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    I will be wiser. I will do what is right. Let this drama go with compassion and grace. ❤️

    It’s my free will, my choice. It is my compassion to myself and others. I don’t want you to be a part of somneone else’s drama over and over again. You all have been hurt and under a lot of pressure here on this forum. I will protect you from the endless vicious circle of conflicts on this forum. ❤️

    We deserve peace and compassion. We don’t need extra stress online. 🙏

    If you need to ask or process something very sensitive, you can write to me silvery8blue@gmail.com

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    in reply to: Compassion and respect during times of conflict #449841
    silvery blue
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    Hello Lucidity,

    It is painful to leave them behind but this is what I have chosen to do because it was affecting me, and so affecting my own family thro me, because I was unable to contain the negative influence my dad and sister had upon me. When I feel stronger I may revisit the situation because I do not want to abandon them but I chose to preserve my own sanity for my own sake and the sake of my family. I feel it was the right decision for me at this point in time. A choice had to be made to help someone since helping someone was what I wanted to do. In the end after years of arguments and disasters, I have chosen to help myself and my family. Helping my dad and sister led to further pain for all parties. Perhaps my dad and sister did not see it as pain but they couldnt stop themselves from responding to me in an emotionally immature way which is a difficult dynamic to withstand when it goes on and on and on. Breaking out of a trauma bond is a very hard and non intuitive thing to do. That may not be what you have at play. I am just relating to you the factors that were at play for me. Put in simply terms, I can only help others after I have helped myself to be a more sane person.

    This speaks to me from the heart, and not only in terms of my private life, but also in terms of this forum.

    I’m seriously considering whether I should be a part of this forum when the pattern of controlling behavior here is hurting me, because it seems to remind me of years of my bullying.

    Maybe it would be wiser to distance myself, take better care of my mental health, and think about what to do next… However, is there any point in going back to this forum when this pattern keeps repeating itself (for years)?

    I am sending ❤️ and ☀️ to think deeply about this.

    I am only trying to become safe and brave. 🙏

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    in reply to: Compassion and respect during times of conflict #449840
    silvery blue
    Participant

    Hello everyone,

    I will reread your posts here again after my break from forums.

    This really resonates with me. Thank you, Tee, for sharing.

    Boundaries are a two way street. If you don’t want replies. It is important to stop making painful assumptions about people that you don’t want to talk to you. You might not understand what you are doing is hurtful. It is. Which is why you have been asked to stop multiple times. No one has to stay quiet whilst you talk about them. It is a public space.

    I am not criticising you. I am managing my own boundaries as someone you are repeatedly talking about. I am allowed to take care of myself, just as you are allowed to take care of yourself.

    Honestly, I don’t need this stress. If you don’t stop I’m just going to leave because I don’t have the emotional bandwidth to deal with it right now.

    🙏 ❤️

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    in reply to: What will make us brave and safe? #449839
    silvery blue
    Participant

    LISTENING TO OURSELVES
    Sometimes when we attempt to listen to another person, we can’t
    hear them because we haven’t listened to ourselves first. Our own
    strong emotions and thoughts are so loud in our heart and in our
    head, crying out for our attention, that we can’t hear the other
    person. Before we listen to another, we need to spend time
    listening to ourselves. We can sit with ourselves, come home to
    ourselves, and listen to what emotions rise up, without judging or
    interrupting them. We can listen to whatever thoughts come up as
    well, and then let them pass without holding on to them. Then,
    when we’ve spent some time listening to ourselves, we are able to
    listen to those around us.

    🙏

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    in reply to: What will make us brave and safe? #449838
    silvery blue
    Participant

    Hello everyone, I would like to share with you some more quotes from the book as inspiration and food for thought.

    A PAUSE
    Suppose someone just said something unpleasant to you. Their
    words and the sound of their voice give you an unpleasant feeling.
    You believe they are trying to make you suffer. Of course you feel
    the desire to react, to say something back. You feel that if you can
    express your anger, if you can make them suffer, you will get
    relief. Most of us react in that way. But mindfulness can help us
    pause for a moment and become aware of the anger building up
    in us. Stopping gives us a chance to acknowledge and to
    transform our anger. When we feel anger, irritation, or indignation
    arising in us, we pause. We stop and come back to our breathing
    straight away. We do not say or do anything when we are
    inhabited by this kind of energy, so we don’t escalate the conflict.
    We wait until we’re calm again. Being able to pause is the
    greatest gift. It gives us the opportunity to bring more love and
    compassion into the world rather than more anger and suffering.

    ❤️

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    in reply to: Healing from repressed memories #449692
    silvery blue
    Participant

    I know. 🫂 Do you have someone in your life you can talk to about this? How do you try to procees it?

    And what actually makes you happy now? 😊

    I’ll be offline for the weekend.

    Sending ❤️

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    in reply to: Parent Life #449688
    silvery blue
    Participant

    I’m not a mom, but I have some experience with children because I babysat my nephews a lot when they were little.

    My sister’s middle son used to bite me when he didn’t like something, as well. I always just kept saying “ouch” with a sad expression, and that distracted him a bit and then he usually changed his attention to something else.

    That worked until the “role-playing” phase came and he was a dinosaur and I was his prey. 😅

    This part is so cute. My brother’s older son loved to play dogs. And he used to ask: “Which dog am I today?” and I was like “Today you are a dachshund and your name is…” and he would go around the flat “Woof, woof, …” ❤️ Our neighbours’ children play this game, too, and they bark at our dog. 😆

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