Thank You Chad and April for your support and advise. This is a decision I have to make. After all these years of trying to be a good mother and wife, is time I take charge of my needs. As all my friends and counselor are females to whom I have turn for support, it is good to get a male point of view on my issue.
My daughters are grown up, however it is definitely going to affect them, as my husband is not close to them. This is as good as replacing them. He is in denial that he did anything wrong.
I appreciate your advise and will make a decision as I know what I want. You are right, I was seeking validation, when I posted my issue here.
Thank you for sharing.