My dream is to become an actor, it is something I love to do and dreamt of almost every night during 10 years but never really had the courage to start (I hated my looks, I really hated myself before), now I have courage and confidence BUT Iam way to lazy to do anything which eventually would make me go back to where I were.

Yea the pressure is not nice, but it is for my own sake and for my own future, if I don’t do anything with my life I won’t get there where I want, I think I really needed that push from someone.

My depression is actully “cured”, I took my last medicine in Mars and have been fine since then.

I do household chores once a week, I try to focus on pshycology and all that self-healing stuff to continue not being depressed. I nowadays take acting classes every evening and then take the rest of the evening off. I take care of my own food, try to exercise and have a social life, I’am rebuilding my life. Only that makes him calm and happy, but I still want to be able to help him go back on track, the way he helped and encouraged me to do. I want to affect him positive the way he affected me.