Hi Maria,
I’m so sorry for what you’re going through. Breakups are never fun, and it can be really difficult to let go when you were in love with someone for so long. My advice to you, would be to let him go. If you feel he is mistreating or disrespecting you, there is no reason to continue contacting him. There are plenty of other men out there. Stop wasting precious moments of your life on someone who is not worth your time 🙂