Thank you Anita,
I have had counselling previously and in previous relationships, CBT and online support over time, but just dont feel that it is really helping, i know what to do/idenifying feelings etc but in the heat of the moment i.e. feeling jealous, I found myself listening to the anxious voice – if you dont ask/say this then you wont ‘really’ find out whats happening, it didnt help that he was wasnt always honest with things, and said he was doing that to protect me,
In terms of growing up its difficult, my dad was busy working a lot, but both parents always did and still do support me, I had a good up bringing so cant think of anything that I can really pin point?