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SParticipantFound the ideas to be quite insightful I’d definitely take some time for it to really settle in grapple with and fully incorporate the last two ideas, I do sometimes write out thoughts but not as often as I should. You know it’s interesting to see this much insight from the outside looking in usually in the rare moments when I say anything to others things usually just feel kind vapid thinking what I was looking for would jump right out in front of me and awaken my mind from fog a highlight to the day. Knowing of these ideas to solutions to the inner investigation, curiously would there possibly be other aspects to work on that I may not be fully aware of outside of what has been looked into?
SParticipantWhat you mentioned, that’s exactly how it is though sometimes what consider to be ideal could be misguided as I dive into tunnel vision reaching to reach some kind of goal though unconventional means. Always thought that being a creator of sorts putting things out there my only means of putting myself out there without really speaking would be the thing that would’ve helped me escape my issues. Art has been the one thing I’ve clanged onto for years yet in terms of creation I never really knew what I wanted to do, usually creativity consists of making unique art all similar to each other that fills a niche interest and I’ve never fully found that niche that I’d be interested in or skilled at. While the idea of creation does still interest me to an extent it’s still up in the air as to whether or not I could find something sustainable.
SParticipantHave expressed myself mostly through some digital art with mixed results thats tends to convey a mood or be based off of a slight interest in a graphically stylized manner with little experimentation here and there if I’m up to it as a means of keeping myself busy giving myself something to do when all else fails. Some art I made has had some meaning as those pieces managed to convey exactly what was in my mind at the time be creating some of my art when I feel like I was at my most uncertain and lowest those tended to be the simpler pieces that just mainly focused on a singular object or subject or sorts, although some of what I made has met something to me it’s mainly been from a sense of accomplishment from the result. Was one of those kids that drew and was considered gifted for it and those side affects do kinda linger.
Being introspective can be nice when I really get into the right headspace, in some instances in the past I felt like it was too introspective when I felt like there was an opportunity for me to do or say something it tends to trail off into introspection which is some cases may have had distanced myself when I was around others stuck in my mind not really focusing on the present.
Neutrality does sound interesting to look into as you mentioned since expectations are indeed something I rely on too often mainly to my detriment.
SParticipantNever done anything like this before but here’s here’s more from me:
Initially had some optimism when younger like anyone would only to be met with constant disappointment as mentioned leaving me jaded the protection mainly stems from poor experiences in expressing myself though communication with people and places I had been around not understanding and rejection when I was open and vulnerable.
I’d probably explore something that would be peaceful yet fulfilling that could be done at any time now what it would be completely far removed from anything I’ve done before possibly unimagined I wouldn’t know sometimes the things right in front of me may not be so obvious ways of expressing myself though depiction and media have been explored would be nice to go all out be free to do and say as I please without pressure. How would I change how I think? The one thing that comes to mind when I hear that would be to think positively when my mind imminently wants to dive head first into worse case scenarios there’s a handful of factors in my life that would make it very difficult to go that route to fully change those thoughts in positive ones.
Being introspective even though I don’t really think about it despite doing it often it’s the least I can do under pressure to understand to be ok with myself.
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