OK so I just went through this where I broke it off with someone I gave multiple chances to and I thought it was my first love. I felt like we had it, the special connection, the love, everything, but there’s one catch!!! He has a girlfriend. And he has mental issues, bipolar which he is sorting through. I believe he connects with me on a level that no one else does. He’s admitted that he likes me and I like him. We were talking for so long, I said I loved him. But he didn’t say it back. Then I confronted him that he should tell his girlfriend and he freaked out. Totally backtracked and said he thought we were just friends. He has a lot of self esteem issues to deal with and I am ready to settle down. I had to stop talking to him even though he very much wanted to talk to me and still be friends. But I know that if we are friends again, it will go down the same path. We have mad chemistry together and can’t stop flirting when it starts. We just click like that. So, I am left broken, wanting a man that doesn’t want to change yet and heart smooshed. This is the hardest thing I’ve been through emotionally and I have self esteem issues too. I’ve tried online dating but am afraid…. I think because I have never really had a stable relationship.