It’s been a messy and sometimes worthwhile 27 years… I relate often to the feeling of limbo and I have been using a few radical techniques lately-
1. Experience anxiety as thrill- feels crazy but at the moments Im terrified, paranoid, confused I try catch myself and tell myself these thoughts that are making my heartrate sky rocket are not scary but thrilling. So yes I’ve been swapping fear for excitement and it’s helping me keep my wits about me
2. Trust- trusting that I will still have gravity to hold me, air to breath and beauty and tenderness somewhere somehow to enjoy helps me calm down and have a bit of clarity.
3. Hormonal health- it feels like my adolscence never ended except I have an extra overwhelming bitter taste of the world.. so I am trying to stay a good friend to myself and sleep well, eat enough and keep my bowels healthy, hug a dog… whatever I need to keep my happy hormones flowing!
so far so much better, more tenderness and self compassion