We have fought on and off for a long time now and I was alwaying the one begging for forgiveness and running back to him. He is controlling to a point I almost feel like he emotional abused me whenever we dont see eye to eye, convince me that I am wrong always in the wrong. I am being patient at the moment, I am thinking through it and just being there for him any way I can, but I am afraid I will mess up or break before things ever become appropriate for us to sit down and talk about us.