Dear SallyDaisy,
you most definitely do NOT deserve to be abused at all, never was and never will.
I have also seen someone I was in love with be happy with someone else. More than once (twice? thrice?)
Nobody really liked me in my jobs either, or school. I always had like a group of 2 to 3 people around me and that was it.
I pushed away so many of my friends I barely have any left (but the ones I do I cherish a lot).
And of course, I also had my problems with my mother and father. And therapy takes a lot of time, in the meantime it feels even more confusing since we’re taking a look at things that are difficult. It is an act of courage really.
I am pretty sure you will heal. Maybe not immediately, but eventually? Oh yes. Just hang in there, take one day at a time and feel grateful for what you already have.
Count on us in this beautiful community. We’re here for you.
Namaste!