Hello Norma 🙂
I am new to tiny buddha so sorry if i dont give the best response but i will try to help as much as i can.

I recently got out of a state of depression. I never really talked too much about it but its okay 🙂 it was really bad at one point (like REALLY bad) but how i found inner peace is a long story. But what i can tell you is that you CAN make yourself happy. Im sorry i dont remember the qoute or who it was by but pretty much what it said was your thoughts come true. I didnt realize that until recently. I dont know if you meditate but if not why not give that a shot. I do it at least twice a day and it helos me out A LOT!!!!! One thing also that has helped me too is be me. I have no worries of what people say or think “Dont let people pull you into their sto
rm, pull them into your peace” – Unknown. Youve said you read a lot of books, if you havent read “a practice of padmasambhava” try that im reading it and i love it. But when you say you sit in your room all day. So do i, but its okay 🙂 i listen to music and draw. Im not too bad of an artist but the thing is is that i know 100% i will get better. Find what you love and be you. I understand youre going through tough times, its not fun i know that so please feel free to private message me (if they have that on here) or if theres any of way to get in contact here.
I hope you have a wounderful day/night i hope i have helped out a little bit 🙂 stay positive. I will ve sending good thoughts your way 🙂
– Cole