Just an update on my life. She hasn’t contact me yet and my anxiety shot off the roof today. It’s been super hard but I got it under control, once I got it under control… I recieved more bad news, my niece has cancer and my second mother has passed away. I don’t know how to process anything and I just feel numb… this has been too much for me and I feel like I’m going to lose myself even more

Nursing school

With nursing school, her mind set is to finish school because she used to be active for the military and was completely happy before she moved back home. So since she failed one of her classes, she has to watch her new friends she made graduate before her and it hitted hard.
She didn’t want to quit nursing school cause her pride is there, she doesn’t want to quit something she started even she hated nursing school and nursing in general. Her parent are financial supporting with a home but she mostly got everything covered by the military.

the day she broke up with me was her being emotional due to a lot of unfortunate situation I can’t say. But the main thing is that she doesn’t see a future with me and the con outweigh the pro. I tried asking her to clarify and she said whenever she talks about her problem with me, it feel like she’s talking to her mom. Whenever she’s down, I always try to give her advice and all she wanted me to do was sit and be there for her cause I have been in the situation so it was jsut me trying to help her out also she felt like we never do things that we plan cause it’s always ever changing. I have notice those signs and tried to do everything under plan the past couple months before the breakup but I guess she couldn’t see it. We spent our last day together and she told me that she didn’t want to her love for me into hatebdue to her depression. She did apologize about the day we broke about what she said and told me she still loves me. I even asked if she’s going to talk about our relationship in therapy and she said no because our relationship was not the cause of my depression