Thank you Anita, yesterday was a challenging day at work with some issues coming up which were problematic and stressful. Some blame may come to me for them but it’s also the problem I have found since I started this role without any proper onboarding or process in place.

A few months ago I think I would have struggled to deal with yesterday but I was able to just stay calm and do what I think I was best. I finished work and got home to see my partner and niece for a few hours and today feel better about things as I am doing my best and that is all I can do. Will keep writing here as helps to express it.

Thanks Anita,

Yes, balance is key and I will do my best to maintain that.

I will keep up with the gratitude and continue to keep you posted on things.

Thanks

Still in the role and trying my best.

Left in tears yesterday though and when I got home to my partner. Mainly due to feeling like not fitting in there and been given tasks without enough context and background.

I am reading a lot of books such as Manifest and trying to think of a solid exit plan but yesterday for some reason it was just too much. Just writing it down to vent more than anything. Thanks

No probs Anita,

I appreciate you taking the time to reply always.

My parents not divorced, but live separately 50% of the time, this has only happened in the last 5-10 years since I’m an adult.

My childhood was good, I had a good bunch of friends and did ok at school/uni.

At home we were ok. My dad worked in London and had a stressful job. He and my Mum had a strained relationship and would often fight. As a child, I hated conflict and would often be worried of what/when the next fight would be. They would be sometimes become very heated, sometimes violent. I would try and appease the situation if I could. They had a lot of deeper issues, including a daughter who was given up for adoption that is never spoke about and I’ve never met.

I’ve always been naturally a quite quiet/shy person until I get to know someone and come out of my shell.

My situation is now that I’m engaged and very happy at home with my partner and dog.

We have a good life. As you know, I changed job a few months back and it’s not going well as I hoped. They haven’t told me it’s not going well but I don’t feel like I’m doing well. I am not enjoying it and have never been someone who changes job lots.

I feel stuck as I get paid well it’s not hard to find a new job but I also feel unfulfilled and don’t want to be like this.

Hello Anita, my parents were not disapproving. My mum and dad had a troubled relationship but never separated (officially).

I have never fully been able to express my fears and concerns with them. Only with my partner.

More time has passed and I am still not enjoying it and counting down until the weekend and them dreading to go back come Sunday evening.

Will try and remain positive and stick it out and give it more time

Hi Anita,

Yes, that’s what I mean.

It probably wasn’t his intention and is just how it’s played out.