Dear V,
We all have our highs and lows. Also a relationship is not a one sided affair, don’t know what makes your boyfriend look at porn even when he is with you, seems deep down you know his gestures of not supporting you in your difficult times is a major red flag. I believe in a relationship private space is important , but not at the cost of the other person.
Ya you are weak and get agitated by the slightest of hints due to your conditions, but isn’t it during these times we need all the support we can!!. What would you do if your BF was suffering and you went around doing things that he is doing now.
I don’t mean to ask you to breakup or anything , but think if he is indeed the right one, and dear dont worry, things will get better, try to get your mind on different things, give your relationship some time, do something or anything that makes you feel better.
(P.S don’t feel bad about what I said, just my viewpoint)
Regards,
Tushar Rajan