If you are fortunate enough to be in work and have the privilege of not enough to do and the ultimate feeling remains of boredom, then you could use your time widely in searching for another job that leaves you feeling happy and rewarded.

if you redirect your energies boredom could become a thing of the past.

or alternatively you could start writing a definitive diary of the stock board!

Looking back over this I wondered why you felt compelled to move back in with your dad.

Something must have happened to make you face tough times financially.

Unless it was accumulated debt.

At least you could try to recognize that your dad tried to help you, although things broke down rather rapidly.

You, in turn, lent your brother $100.

So you have an element of family loyalty and kinship. However , experience has shown you that they are not people you can rely on so clearly you need to find another support system.

You cannot rely on alcohol as it will most certainly betray you.

Perhaps you could learn to rely on yourself by learning new skills, maybe joining Alcoholics Annonymous.

The bond with your mother is of primary importance because she brought you into this world, but now that she has passed away you feel deserted.

It may appear that this is the case, but your mother is in spirit now and will be aware of your suffering and struggling.

Maybe you could create a tribute to her. Perhaps float flowers on water or even just buy her favourite flowers and remember her graciously.

You may feel alone in this world, at this time, but rest assured that you will have relatives from previous times who take an interest in your current circumstances.

If people are breaking into flats and stealing and threatening other people  then sometimes you have to stand your ground.

If the situation gets out of hand then you are forced to call the police.

It can be very difficult when you have divided loyalties, but it is important to remember that you are here on this earth for a reason and the best may be yet to come.