I’ve had a life full of challenges. I’ve been through a lot. At 55 there is one thing I would tell my teenage self and since I can’t tell her I’m going to tell you: don’t focus so much on WHAT you want to do, instead focus more on WHO you want to be. Once you picture the person you want to be then find things that will help you become her. If I had done that I would be a much happier person today. I know what the depression is like. I’ve had it since I was 13. Looking back I believe I would have helped myself greatly if I would have decided who I want to be and then made friends, chosen a spouse, gotten an education, had experiences, etc. that would have made it more likely for me to become that woman. You have great potential. Nobody should decide for you. You owe it to your future self to love you enough to focus on who you want to be.