Dear anita:

This started last year, I was taking the second year of computer science on college and I was extremely discouraged. My family never understood why I wasn’t being successfull. I always thought that if I kept trying, I was going to like the course, but it never happenned. I felt totally apart of my family. They never understood me and never trusted me. Sometimes I felt totally alone. It was a strange feeling.

My dad always pushed me to being the perfect student, because himself was a great student. That really touches the wound.

Then, I decided to change my life. Now, I’m taking Management and I like it very much. But then Again, I’m not taking the best choices for myself. And I expect too much of myself. In some way, I feel hurt. It’s like I got weaker. And what blows everything is the fact that I want so bad to be authentic and to be myself, that I fail. Then I have auto-critic thoughts. (This last part I’m working since the beginning, and I’m a lot better).