Sort of. If something bad is going to happen, I’m aware I won’t be enjoying that situation at all, but I don’t feel bad about it. It would make my situation even worse.

I do find my mind more secure than my body. So I’ve decided to shift my focus on body, which will allow more opportunities to arise as I progress.

As for the direct answer, I am not confident in my body capabilities of inflicting pain and defending myself, because I haven’t experienced it that much. Still doesn’t mean I feel bad about it. I’m rather enjoying this situation, as I can see how I’m progressing.

I am doing everything, I couldn’t do before. My performance and joy has increased as well, in all aspects.

I’m getting better at skills I used to be “bad” at.

What I’m thinking is, that I might have not achieved, emotional mastery. I’m satisfied all the time. That isn’t “normal”, because most people aren’t feeling that way. Although, something not being normal, doesn’t mean it’s unhealthy. So, what would emotional mastery be?