Dear Jarred,
I am totally agree with Anita, this might help you to stay away from the problems for a short while but you must also seek some help from within. Your conscience is a healer in itself and the greatest friend of all. You are a believer, Right? Just believe in what makes you happy. Try to realize that happiness all around and everywhere. Its not going to be easy to make it happen. If you want to cut to the chase, Find some purpose, your own purpose for which you have taken this human form. you are special and infinite from within. Just believe in your self and follow your heart. BUT PLEASE STAY AWAY FROM THAT MA*&^%%^NA !!!
You are special and always believe that something wonderful is about to happen!!!
All The best