Hi Anita,

There are a lot of things happened in the past couple weeks.

I found out that my partner was cheating on me in the time she’s emotionally checking out. Hence it explains all the lost of feelings and the begging. I broke up with her but at the very end she didn’t treat me with respect. Until the very end, she didn’t give me an honest answer, no clarity, and she also didn’t own her wrong doings. I was the one who made the decision, I was the one who cut ties, and I was the one who walked away. I felt discarded like the past 7 years doesn’t mean anything to her.

I realized that she was never the person I thought she is. I saw her all these times partly as a reflection of my own value, it’s like I was giving her value. I know deep down she’s not the right fit for me and vice versa. But the feeling of being discarded without respect after what I’ve given to her sucks so bad. I’m sad, angry, betrayed, and feeling like I’m losing myself. How do I recover from this? It feels like the pain is gonna be ingrained for a long long time and I’m not sure how I can open up to someone ever again.