Oh I have only just signed up to this website today, although I’ve used and read lots on here before. Your story is the first I have read, I really felt for you reading it. I’m a bit soft where heart breaks are concerned. Lots of things were going through my heads as I read your story. I’m no expert but it really does sound like this girl has a few issues? Would you agree? I obviously do not know why she has experienced a break down in the past, but she could be quite vulnerable emotionally speaking. I don’t know her, I also strongly believe that there is always two sides. Obviously we could really talk about her issues and what they may be, to help you to understand more. I am happy to do that if you feel it would help you and how you are currently feeling. What I will say to you, and this comes from a very compassionate, understanding and non-judgemental place, you are important in all this. What you think, what you feel, how you deserve to be treated, what you want from life is all important. There is a saying, now don’t quote me lol but its something like, what’s meant to be will find a way. I never tell people what to do, but put yourself first. Yeah she may finish college in two years, but what about you in the meantime, what about you in two years? Do you feel like you need answers?
I really do hope you are ok. Sending you love xx