Dear Roary,                                                               Just think for a while instead of ending your life, why are you here finding answer to be alive. Because deep down even you too want to live. Why do we search for things? Aren’t you trying to help your own self? There’s aa wil inside you to be alive.                                     I have been fighting depression since childhood. It’s been in phases, even while writing this to you I know I am broken inside. But just know one thing ” This too shall pass”. You do not have to do something extraordinary in life to feel worthy of yourself. If you do not like your job, try to find another one. There are ample opportunities in the world. Try working as a volunteer in some NGO or United Nations. Look at the world from a different perspective. There are people who are stateless seeking refugees in other countries. They do not even have an identity, jobs,homes, friends,families not even food. Aren’t we in a much much better state. Try visiting a Buddhist monastery in your area or in southeast asia. We all are fighting something or the other, find means for healing your self. If one does not work try on something else. Keep on trying. But do not give up on life.