I agree, Anita. After all, our bond did not develop just like that… and I still have enough faith in it. Sadly the act of hurting a loved one with cruel words which go into their hearts like fiery knives, making them suffer death-like pain everyday as they feel the effects of it, is only a little short of as terrible as murder. And losing a loved one, especially one who means the world to you, due to your continuous and remorseless misdeeds is a punishment nearly as terrible as prison. Maybe even prison would be tolerable in comparison to this anguish.

Yes I do know the two incidents are unconnected. I just felt bad for my actions. And yup I’ve read about how the passive aggressiveness works. On such occasions I generally just tend to get up and walk away. Though here I do know he has a genuine reason to be worried. But with all this pressure in my head, studies are only intermittently possible for me, until that terrible crushing sensation begins.