Thank you for your replies. I think that might be the point, Anita. Actually both my parents were very distant emotionally. They were fighting all the time and I’ve never really seen them being affectionate for each other. I may not even realize this, but there might be something familiar in pattern of chasing unattainable love. Maybe that’s why I have such strong feelings for my ex.

It wears me out.. I spend fantastic time with my girlfriend, and then I come back to my empty apartment and nostalgia takes my mind. During these times my ex is the only person on Earth, I’m thinking about.

El, I think your right in that point. She caused a lot of damage to my self-esteem.I remember the first time she dumped me for another guy. I was questioning totally everything about myself